even though i tried hard, i just could not balance things. be it in work, my timetable and everything. or maybe, its just the mind set i have, thinking that "ohwell, everything will be balanced out in the end and everything will be fine". its's just my wishful thinking.

a scene from moonlight resonance, where the big brother broke up with her girlfriend as she keeps on picking on his sister in the dark. the only thing i can say is i salute this guy, though he is a fiction chacracter. How many people are ready to sacrifice their partners for their friends or family? Well, alot people will actually say yes but what if its for real? how many people are willing sacrifice? well, i bet there's less than a dozen. even for me, i cant answer that question.

i believe everything happens for a reason. as the sayings go, "it does not take one hand to clap.* and to think that both of you are actually alike in a way and i do see the similarity. LOL.

i cant lose any of you. you two grows up with me and are there for me in my teenage years, and you two will and shall watch me get married and grow old. i do not want any of these bonds to be broken. thus. i chose the easier way out; let the naive one be the innocent one and continue to be as naive as ever as i know the other party will suffer alot in silence.

when things get overboard, what can i do? i think i will just lose control and starts shouting and swearing at the other party partner. but thinking it again, am i really able to do it? im afraid that these will let to two options with the other party, either happily ever with his partner, or friends forever with us. Both options will make him crazy, and i cant think further than that.

i think i will sacrfice my partner, but who knows what will i choose when the time come? =(

hlstory at 12:53 AM | Comment

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